The never ending medication

I have been taking this stupid Verapamil for three years now. I am sick to death of feeling so tired all of the time. I am sick to death of trying not to forget a dose or two. These big pharmaceutical companies and their killer prices are going to kill the want to be better. Luckily I have insurance that helps. It's still $30 every month just for the Verapamil.

I have found some alternative treatments that seem to work, but I'm not always able to partake in them. This weekend might just push me over the edge. The Verapamil is no longer working like it used to, and the side effects are getting unbearable. I cannot just stop taking it for fear of further damage to my body. I have to wait another month for my new neurologist appointment. This one is actually a true headache specialist, so here's hoping!

That is all for today. Hope y'all have a great, and pain free weekend!

January is not only cold, it's painful

Wednesday PM, says that little red tab on my medication tray...shit! I forgot an evening dose. Those are the most detrimental due to being twice as large as the morning dose. I guess I shouldn't be so worried. It's not like it has been working anymore anyway. Looks like tonight is going to be another screamer because forgot to fill my oxygen tank this afternoon, so no instant relief.

Maybe I'm imagining this, butI think I can feel the lack of oxygen creeping up my neck for another sweet kiss of sledgehammer in the eye tonight. My oh my, how I loathe the need for pain relief. Don't get me wrong I enjoy the relief, but when it doesn't work, or I forget to fill the tank, I might as well not have it.

I hate pain.